Ramadan Diaries 2022

Day 1 yesterday I was shocked the month has started and read 12 rakaat tarawih after a decade I guess

Day 2 today only 2 rakaat

Day 3 I was travelling in the Bus and sleeping around 9:00 I had a dream something like I was sleeping beside someone and he is very close to my face and like let's kiss what does it matter and I was kissing and thought that wrong everyone is watching and I woke up.

 Day 4 In the morning nearly 8:30 I had a dream that someone is tooking out his shirt from the navel and other one saying let's do it and I like hesitatingly joined the second one. and I heard azaan is happening but I thought who cares and continued to join them. one is standing to wall tooking his shirt off, second is going to kiss his navel naked and I touched his thing but it's like very small like clitoris and I thought what is this and I had wet dream. 

Day 5 started to write this

Day 6 not having interest in sunnah as required

Day 7 

Day 23

Nothing special these days just usual. Neither I am doing ibadat nor browsing in the night not even spilling over anything.

Around day 10 when I was preparing lemon juice for iftar a thing happened that I cannot come to conclusion about it. There was a steel glass on steel plates which are steel bowls on the kitchen platform. As I was cutting lemons for juice, the glass suddenly moved one time then one time and again once. I took a picture of it and you can see the shift in clean part from dust part.

And yesterday at sehr time my alarm rang and woke up turn off and slowly sleeping again then suddenly I heard cracking of plastic water bottle. 

I don't know what to do with these. I didn't got scared that much but......

Day 30

This month ended and I didn't do much deeds as has to do. And last week I was alone and watched two movies. This month I didn't spill anything. Didn't browse anything. But didn't immersed in ibadah only peripheral deeds. Something like I was in standby mode.

Don't know how to conclude. Hope I would not repeat my bad habits.